Day 64

Day 64

The 64 day question?

What a roller coaster ride early sobriety is! I came into AA on 10 Dec 2012; had three separate day busts and a full three days straight - after that conversation when I said to my sponsor "I don't want to be a hopeless alcoholic" and he said "mate! You are there!" I had no more excuses.

The life of a continual or part time drunk was not for the faint hearted, but I was medicated to enable me to destroy my life with the minimum of feelings.

At least, on this path, I have a lot of help - support in the way the program is done. Support from the people in the program I relate to.

Life was very tough last week. I was restless, irritable and discontented, perhaps, but on-edge, for sure!

My solution was to attend 2 meetings on Wednesday, 2 meetings on Friday, and two meetings on Saturday. A total of 10 meetings for the week.

By Friday afternoon I had settled down a lot and was back on an even keel.

I spoke with my sponsor early in the week and again in person on Saturday afternoon. That helped a lot. He gave me some direction.

There is a fair bit on my plate at the moment; a speech to prepare; a course to attend; troubles with my partner; a business to maintain; a recovery to work through as an ongoing spiritual recovery.

The recovery must take precedence!

There was a meeting I was half an hour late for that was an outstanding contribution to my day today.

My sponsor said to commit to the daily reflections book as an aid to my recovery - I commit to that.

The positives are the program, with the support of the fellowship.

The negative is the more I sit and listen in the rooms, the more I see myself and remember the destructive things I did.

The overwhelmingly positive things are my gradually improving quality of mind, greater relaxation, and increasing ability to forgive myself and others.

My journey is in its infancy. I look forward to helping it grow.

10 years, 5 years, 3 months, 1 day,
All have in common, just one drink away

I choose life :-)