Just before I went on the conference, in answer to "If I drink while I'm away, no-one will know," the facilitator responded
"YOU will know."
"The most important person will know!"
Every time I heard those bottles clinking around when I opened the fridge door, I "played the tape through to the end" and laughed and said "that's not what I want!"
I am at the stage now where great change is possible - with commitment.
I am making a living, however I have the opportunity to have "a living that is making me."
Exciting!!
A year and a half ago, I looked up and saw the direction I was headed in and wanted the destination to change. Like any journey, a degree or two change in direction will cause the actual destination to be totally different. It wont necessarily be better or worse, just different.
Instead of rain and clouds on the horizon, I see flowers and sunshine as well.
Some flowers, when planted, will not grow.
Some, rarely, are trampled.
Some, even more rarely, are stolen.
The things I can CONTROL are the planting and the nurturing.
Some flowers can even send seeds to other people, who will plant them and create a paddock of flowers with me and others.
Without sobriety the will and the ability to plant exist in very diminished quantities.
